Dying to Self - Life from Death

^{John 12:20} Now there were some Greeks among those who went up to worship at the festival. ²¹ They came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, with a request. “Sir,” they said, “we would like to see Jesus.” ²² Philip went to tell Andrew; Andrew and Philip in turn told Jesus.

²³ Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. ²⁴ Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. ²⁵ Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life. ²⁶ Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

v23 - What do you think of when you hear that someone is about to receive "glory"? Praise in any fashion... applause... everyone knows about it.

v24 - Jesus indicates that the way he will find his glory is by becoming that seed that falls to the ground and dies. What does he say will be the impact of the seed that dies? If the seed dies, it will produce many more seeds. Jesus died for us (as did the kernel of wheat) he became that seed and produced many more seeds.

v26- why is this exciting? God is going to honor us that follows Jesus! How could that not be exciting?

Just the thought itself of God wanting to honor me is unfathomable. Just because I decided to follow Jesus, God want's to make sure I'm taken care of in many ways.

Honestly, this week has been a good week for me. I'm doing what I can to focus on God and the kingdom instead of the issues going on in my life. There are many things that I can get wrapped up in worry over, however, I'm choosing to allow God to take control of these things. I still need to be praying more, even though I have now gotten my quiet times moving in the right direction. I currently have a head cold which has made me even spacier than usual, so I will still have to work on my prayer time. Right now, when I close my eyes, I feel like falling asleep.

I would really like to wake up feeling refreshed and energetic. One day this will happen! I know I need to loose weight, big time, between that and exercising better I'm sure that I'll sleep a little better. I'm also sure that when God puts a job infront of Will, the financial worries will disappear from my list. So, if you pray, pray for that... for Will to find a job. I haven't decided what I'm going to fast from yet for this, but I will find something to fast from until he's working again. Suggestions are welcome.

Dying to Self - New Attitude

What do I think when I read these passages:

Phil 2:¹⁴ Do everything without grumbling or arguing, ¹⁵ so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky

This one is well used with us parents, we just need to use it ourselves. Stop complaining so you can be blameless in God's sight and SHINE like the stars.

Phil 3: ⁷ But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. ⁸ What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ ⁹ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in^[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. ¹⁰ I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, ¹¹ and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.

Everything is garbage if it's not Jesus!

Phil 4:⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

This says it all alone... rejoice in the Lord! Be happy and glad no matter what comes your way.

PHil 4:¹¹ I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.

This is one of the most difficult things to do... be content no matter what. I have to respond to this! I need to be content with the way God has put my life together. He has given me so much wonderful things in my life... there's no reason to feel low about anything.


Phil 4:⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!

In Jesus Christ we have all we need to maintain a great attitude. True or false? reason?
This is so true. When we are saved, that's the best thing ever! This is the reason for Jesus. So, with Him we can be happy no matter what. Besides, if you're saved and going to heaven the little things of the earth are just that... of the earth... not of heaven. It is really hard to remember this, especially for those of us who suffer with depression naturally, but we can do it. No matter what our hurdles are, as long as Jesus is in our lives we can survive it with a good attitude. He will sit by us every day. He will shove us in the right direction when we need it. It's up to us whether we are going to follow that thin path He's made for us. It's the hardest path to follow, but we can do it.

John 16:³³ “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Peace, what a concept! See! Even Jesus says we'll have trouble in our lives. It's not that being saved makes your life trouble free, not one bit, it's just that with Him you can have peace. You can overcome the world as He did. You no longer need to live like those around you... greedy, envious, angry, bitter, etc.

Romans 8: ²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Wow! God works for those who love him.

James 1:² Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

This is so hard to do while you're in the middle of trials... be happy about it. You'll have trials, problems in your life, this will not change. Following God does not mean they will go away, only that God is always with you and will help you find the right answers. It will help you grow and mature in your life as you face these trials and problems.

Now to remember each day to put these into practice! I need to remember these scriptures. God wants me to continue growing stronger and lean on Him when I need some help. I will do this. Praying will help as well. Specific prayers, not just for others, but for the needs of myself and my family. Everyone needs to do this as well.

Dying to Self - Taking Correction

Proverbs 2: ¹ My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
² turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
³ indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
⁴ and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
⁵ then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.
⁶ For the LORD gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
⁷ He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
⁸ for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.

Proverbs 12: ¹⁵ The way of fools seems right to them,
but the wise listen to advice.

Proverbs 10: ¹⁷ Whoever heeds discipline shows the way to life,
but whoever ignores correction leads others astray.

We all need correction. What is the message in these scriptures? God will give us the answers to our questions, even if we don't like the answer. Sometimes we just need to look into His word to learn our lessons in life. He will always be there, but we need to learn from others as well. This is the reason there are other Christians in our lives... to help us learn.

My attitude about being corrected: I honestly don't mind it most of the time. Sometimes I will have an attitude toward whomever is correcting me. There are specific people that can cause a negative reaction from me when they correct me or my actions. I know that if someone is going out and correcting me about something than I need to make a change.

Proverbs 15: ⁹ The LORD detests the way of the wicked,

but he loves those who pursue righteousness.

¹⁰ Stern discipline awaits anyone who leaves the path;
the one who hates correction will die.

Proverbs 12:¹ Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,
but whoever hates correction is stupid.

2 Timothy 3:¹⁶ All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, ¹⁷ so that the servant of God^[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

If someone is going to help me learn and teach me thru God's word... awesome. This can equip me with the power to overcome the issue. When it is brought to me in a worldly manner, good cannot always come from it. No matter what if I remember to keep God's word on my heart, I can learn and become a better Christian.

Personal note:

I have seen recently one person that has shown an amazing repentance of heart. This person asked for help, God's word was put into place and amazing things can now happen in this person's life. I can't wait to witness it.

I need to make many changes in myself. If anyone who reads these blogs knows of scriptures that can help me, that would be wonderful. I need to change my eating habits and make sure that I treat my body as God wants me to; as his temple. I know what I need to do, the actual doing is the hard part. Chocolate and pop are the downfall for me. I need to make a major effort to change something and become a healthier me, for God, not just for weight loss and control. I need to treat my life as He sees it, special and a gift.

Dying to Self - Life in the Spirit

Before starting today's study, ask yourself a very important question: "Am I making every effort to be in close contact with other Christians?" This is crucial, and in future studies we will focus on the importance of relationships. Most of us have some tendency from tie to time for various reasons to pull back from others. Spiritually, this can be FATAL! Even when you don't "feel like it," stay in touch.

Romans 7: ¹⁴ We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. ¹⁵ I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶ And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷ As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸ For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹ For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰ Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

²¹ So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. ²² For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; ²³ but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. ²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?

We are powerless to live this life without God's help. It is clear why we must "disown" the sinful nature. ²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?

Romans 8: ¹ Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, ² because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you^[a] free from the law of sin and death. ³ For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,^[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.^[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh, ⁴ in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.

⁵ Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. ⁶ The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. ⁷ The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. ⁸ Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.

⁹ You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. ¹⁰ But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life because of righteousness. ¹¹ And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.

¹² Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. ¹³ For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.

¹⁴ For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. ¹⁵ The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” ¹⁶ The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. ¹⁷ Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Well, looking at this is amazing. What am I doing to stay in contact with other disciples of Christ? This is one way. Unfortunately, I am in a prediciment that causes being together difficult for me. I think that the internet was a great invention and God has blessed it so much. I can keep in contact with other Christians this way. When I was first a baby Christian I didn't have the internet. I could only stay in contact by phone and once in a while being with others. I truly believe that this can be used for God. I have learned that I need to make sure I stay in contact with others, I cannot depend on others to keep in touch with me. God wants me to stay in contact with Him, I should expect the same of myself... stay in contact with other people as well.

I know how important it is to be around the body of Christ. To me it's a difference of spending a full 7 days at camp then coming home. Life in my home is not the Christian lifestyle, in my beliefs. When I am away from the body my faith can become shaky. Other Christians can help keep up that zeal for God.

Dying to Self - From Old to New

Romans 6:¹ What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? ² By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? ³ Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? ⁴ We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

Read and study this carefully. Each time you come to the word "we" or "us" substitute your own name.

¹ What shall we say, then? Shall I go on sinning so that grace may increase? ² By no means! I have died to sin; how can I live in it any longer? ³ Or don’t you know that you who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? ⁴ I was therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, I too may live a new life.

What a way to look at this passage! I caused it... I need to get out of it!

Getting rid of your old self and putting on the new. What do I need to do to stay in my new self? I need to stay focused on Jesus! That's a start. Think before I react or speak. Love everyone. Stop judging others. No more getting angry, whether it's with myself or someone else. I need to be just and calm, no matter what happens.

What's the plan of attack? This is the first step. Staying with the word every day. This will help me stayed focused on all that God has done for me.

Romans 6:¹⁵ What then? Shall we sin because we are not under the law but under grace? By no means! ¹⁶ Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness? ¹⁷ But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance. ¹⁸ You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness.

¹⁹ I am using an example from everyday life because of your human limitations. Just as you used to offer yourselves as slaves to impurity and to ever-increasing wickedness, so now offer yourselves as slaves to righteousness leading to holiness. ²⁰ When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness. ²¹ What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! ²² But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. ²³ For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I need to stay as far away from sin as possible. There is much I need to learn about this still.

Dying to Self - Co-Crucified with Christ

Gal 2:²⁰ I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

The word in Greek in this verse actually means "I have been co-crucified with Christ." How do we use the prefix "co"? What is a "co-worker" or "co- leader"? And so what is the message for Christians?

This to me means that even though it is Christ who was crucified physically, I was there as well. My sins were crucified. Now I'm in the body of Christ, so I can live by my faith in Him.

Mat 7?¹² So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

How do I make this part of me? Do I treat others the way God wants me to? I'm trying to. I do need to work on this however. I know that sometimes I'm not as nice as I should be, or as considerate as I can be. I will have to do some praying on this issue. Praying that God will give me the opportunities to make the changes He sees that I need. With Him I can make the changes I want to in me, I just need to make sure it's with Him and not against Him.

Dying to Self - The Power of Dying

What a difficult concept. These studies are to show us clearly that the real problem in life is. The problem is the "old self" that lives for itself. Jesus Christ calls for the old self to be crucified, and he promises to raise up a new and very different "self." It is in dying that we find life.

The studies I will be blogging about Dying to Self is from "The Disciple's Handbook" published by DPI. These are important studies for myself and many others. I really need to make some changes in my life... on of which is "dying to self". Quotes from the book I'm using will be in blue, verses from the bible in red and my own thoughts in green. I pray that this will help me build a stronger relationship with God.

Luke 9:¹⁸ Once when Jesus was praying in private and his disciples were with him, he asked them, “Who do the crowds say I am?”

¹⁹ They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, that one of the prophets of long ago has come back to life.”

²⁰ “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?”

Peter answered, “God’s Messiah.”

Jesus Predicts His Death

²¹ Jesus strictly warned them not to tell this to anyone. ²² And he said, “The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life.”

²³ Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. ²⁴ For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it. ²⁵ What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self? ²⁶ Whoever is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of them when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels.

Well, who do you think Jesus really is? Is he the son of God or just a prophet? Is he just a man from the past that did really cool things? Me, I totally believe that Jesus is the son of God. He is my savior.

vs23 - denying yourself. What is it when you deny yourself? Absolutely nothing in the negative. Jesus is telling us that we need to deny the sinful nature we have. Don't allow ourselves to do the things that the world wants us to do.

vs24 - loosing your life but saving it? This can be so confusing. We look at loosing life as in physically dying. It's not in this point. We need to leave the sinful life we are leading behind us. If we can do this... we gain our salvation.

vs25 - gaining the whole world... what is in the world that you can take with you when you die? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. So, why do we want to have better things than everyone else? We need to give up the worldly life and live for God... not ourselves.

Luke 18: ²⁸ Peter said to him, “We have left all we had to follow you!” ²⁹ “Truly I tell you,” Jesus said to them, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or sisters or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God ³⁰ will fail to receive many times as much in this age, and in the age to come eternal life.”

How do you expect this to work out in your life? Such a difficult concept. Leaving your family (whether is wife, husband, brother, sister, mom or day) is actually leaving the way they are living if they are living a life other than for God. It's all about getting to heaven. That's the goal of a Christian. Live your life as God tells us to in the Bible. Do not do as your family in the world does.

This aspect is very important to me. Studying out this again is necessary. I do not know how many times I've ready or studied out dying to oneself. It's an ongoing process. Sin will always creep up on you. It's how you handle it that's important. I've been learning more about myself and what God is wanting me to do in my life. I know I'm living as far away from His kingdom for some reason, He's not going to share that reason with me right now, but I know one day He will.

Giving up the worldly aspects and wants is what God wants us to give up. Live for HIM not for oneself.

The Walk

My walk is the only one I know. I look at other people and see that I know God does not want me dealing with their issues, but with mine. He's given me specific things in my life. I shall handle them the best that I can.

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. 2 Timothy 2:22-26 NIV

God wants us to follow Him no matter what our trials are. He wants us to pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace together with other Christians. Be kind to everyone. Hmmm, ever have a difficult time with that? I know I do sometimes. I have to bite on my tongue so I do not start quarrels. This is what we've been taught as kids... think about what you're going to say before you say it. Putting this into practice is difficult. It's much easier to just say whatever comes to mind, not thinking or caring about the other person. This is now how God wants us to treat each other. We need to be nice and loving to everyone, even those we do not like and those that sin against us.

To do this we need to know God's love. It's not possible without it. The only way we can learn to forgive and love others is by reading God's word and learning how He wants us to live. Once we learn how we're forgiven, then we can truly forgive someone else. Forgiving is a difficult thing for some, but it's amazing when you are able to do that.

God forgives us for our sins. For all the bad things we do in our lives. He still loves us... no matter. Now get off your butt and follow Him. Read his word. Live your life for Him!

Today it's a difficult day for me to do these things as I'm completely exhausted. Wednesday nights are late nights for me and already having lack of sleep in my system makes it more difficult to feel rested in the mornings. So today I'm doing the best I can to focus on Him and do what I can for Him, not me alone.

Putting on my Armor

The Armor of God

Eph 6:¹⁰Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. ¹¹Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. ¹²For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. ¹³Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. ¹⁴Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, ¹⁵and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. ¹⁶In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. ¹⁷Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. ¹⁸And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

¹⁹Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, ²⁰for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

Have I put on my armor today? Not as well as I would like, but that will improve with time. Just like anything else, the more you practice the better you can become at something. When you fall down trying, pick yourself up and try it again. This is where I am. I'm picking myself up and starting again. Wonder what this means? Basically, I have not been the Christian that I expect myself to be. I believe that if I am going to make an impact on anyone for God, then I need to live the life He wants me to be living. I need to seek him out every day. I need to pray continusly. Over and over, living on the Word of my God. The one true God!

¹³Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Every day we need to do this. Put on your armor of God. Each piece has a special meaning and it will help you walk with Him daily. Defeating the satan when he attacks you... which he will do it often. Just when you least expect it, you'll be hit with something. This is when He wants you to see Him. He's here with me daily. I can see God walking with me. Helping me to learn more and grow.

THE ARMOR OF GOD:

¹⁴Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,

Here are two pieces; the belt of truth and the breastplate of righteousness. TRUTH - be truthful with God and yourself as well as others. The breastplate will protect your heart and help keep you righteous.

¹⁵and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

Reading the word will make you ready for your race, each day.

¹⁶In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

Your faith will definately help you get through anything that God allows satan to throw at you. No matter what if you are faithful with God, He will be there with you. He will not leave you alone, never. Life is no way near perfect, however, if you allow yourself to stay faithful God will carry you through whatever comes your way.

¹⁷Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God

The helmet and sword.... which is the word. This is so simple. The word of God (the bible) tells us how to handle things, what should be important in our lives. If we are not reading the word, we loose sight of what He wants of us. We forget, start putting other things first, instead of Him. So grab that helmet to remember those scriptures, or at least read the word. Make sure you have that sword in your hand to fight off the world. The world will try to corrupt you and lead you away from the truth. God's word is the truth.

8And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

Pray, pray and then pray some more. Praying doesn't have to be anything specific. When I'm praying, I talk to God just like I talk to people. God is my best friend. He knows every little bit of me. He knows the good and the bad. He knows what will get me through a day and what will bring me down. I know that satan knows those things as well. When I get pummeled by satan, I know that God will pull be through.

Today I start fresh. I began my day in worship with Him. Singing in the shower, yep... listening to some great music and singing to Him. I am looking at my day in a fresh way. Each day is new and amazing. God did so much to make it possible for me to be here, even for me to be able to blog my spiritual walk so that you can read this. Without Him we would have no heaven. Jesus is the way and the truth. He died on the cross so you and I could get to heaven. When I think about that, it just amazes me. Someone died for me, knowing I was going to sin even when I don't want to or tell myself I'm not going to do that again.

God is amazing. He made a beautiful day. He made such wonderful smells, colors for us to see, tastes, plants to create medicines, gave us the brains how to use these things and above all, he gave us His son.

Quest Camp... continued

I know I haven't finished my discussion on my experience at camp this year. There is still so much to tell. Our days at camp were a meer 7. That's it! Seven days to see God... It was the God channel... God all day every day! It was awesome!

Each day started with our time with God, showers, breakfast, and clean up. Once the slow part of the morning was over, then it was time for Worship LIVE. This was always a wonderful time filled with music galore! What a way to wake up in the morning! The singing was amazing!

We had morning messages after that. Each day was different and given by a different person. We learned about: The Father, The Son, The Holy Spirit, Holiness and Who Am I? After each morning message we had a reflection time. Each day was a little different. The day we learned about The Son there were cross stations around camp. We would go together in groups and learn by visually seeing what Jesus went through as he was crucified. Can you even imagine what He went through?

This was an experience that moved hearts! This was not just for the teens... the counselors were moved just as much by the same teachings.

Each day after our reflection time we had lunch then free time. Our lunches... well, they were a blast! This would be an understatement. How do you control 180 hungry teens and 40+ counselors and workers that would like to eat? You have to answer a question to get your table excused for a meal. Yep! The questions could be anything. Name that tune was always a great one. Then there were the questions about West Virginia... how funny is that? None of us are from there, except the camp leader! So that's how you control a mob of hungry people!

We always had some great music with our meals as well. Fun thing was when people would break out and dance or sing along with the music. There are a couple of videos from these meals. One is a blast... from Footloose... Devon was so funny, dancing just like Kevin Bacon! It was so much fun!

So, this is the first half of the day! So much already! We've been fed spiritually, physically and just having a great time!

October

It's so amazing how it's already October. It is so true that as you get older time goes by quicker. I really think we can slow it down in our own mind's eye if we really want to. This is my way of doing that. I take a step out of my day and write. This is where it begins, even when it's in the evening like right now.

Tomorrow is BYND (bring your neighbor day) at church. This has always been a struggle with me, inviting people. I know that satan is going to try to find ways to stop us from inviting others to see God's truth. In all honesty, I had the perfect opportunity this Thursday and I blew it. I did however, return to the topic and ask the person via email. There's been no response, but that's ok.

It's so difficult for me to ask people near where I live to join me at church. This is due to my location. There is a church within walking distance of my house, but instead of going to a local church I go to one that I know teaches the truth about God and his Word. Where people are not interpreting the bible as they want to, but as it's written. So, I drive 35 miles to get there. Most times I also pick up a teen whose family does not go either. So, I leave my house around 8am for the 10am service. I don't mind the drive most times, I enjoy driving and I have my iPOD with me 99% of the time. I will listen to my music and worship God on my drive! I think it's a great way to start a morning worship. Jammin' to some great Christian music.

This year I've definately learned to like other music, even rap! That has to do with camp! That's something else I need to finish up... my camp blog! I can't wait for next year's camp already... but I'll wait.

Last Saturday I was thrilled to be a chaperon to the midwest churches homecoming dance. Oh my gosh! It was awesome! The music was great! The kids were great! The dancing was awesome! I took 196 pictures!

The best thing was that I didn't tell many of the teens that I was going to be there, I wanted to surprise a few. Boy did I! The best response was by one young lady that was in my cabin this year. She was in line waiting to get in and came running up to me. Yelling my name and gave me a great big hug. It made me feel so special, I almost cried.

The bonds you forge with other believers can be so tight! Yes, even from a younger generation. I still have such respect for the teens I've gotten to know over the last two years. They can be so inspiring. So loving. So fun! They know what the truth is from God. They live as best as they can as Christians and still have a blast in life. They are a wonderful example for everyone to see!

Well, now all I'm thinking about are the kids from camp! Trust me, it's not a bad thing one bit. The experiences I've had over those two weeks (2009 & 2010) have totally changed me. What these teens go through and still they stand firm in their beliefs... makes my driving 35 miles one way seem like NOTHING.

They are truly amazing and am so glad that I have had the opportunity to get to know so many.

Fitting in

Isn't it so great that you can still learn things as you get older? Well, I think it is. I did some learning this weekend. Most of us want to "fit in" sometime in our lives. Whether it's in elementary school, middle/jr high school, high school, work place, church, family, neighbors, we all have the same need at one point in our lives. Well, I've always felt like I never fit in anywhere. I've come to learn some things about it this weekend. First, and foremost, it's ok not to fit in. Wow! I've always wanted to fit in and never felt like I do. Well, I don't fit in really. But... I've learned that it's ok.

Acts 2:⁴⁴All the believers were together and had everything in common.

So, God tells us here that we will have everything in common as long as the body of believers are together. This is amazing. Think about that.

Acts 3: ¹One day Peter and John were going up to the temple at the time of prayer—at three in the afternoon.

So, Peter and John were best friends... they didn't start that way, but Jesus brought them together with him and James many times. The four were inseperable friends! Peter and John didn't pray once a day... they prayed often together.

Acts 2: ⁴⁶Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, ⁴⁷praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people.

Getting together with other believers will make your bond with them stronger. They will become "family" and your best friends. They would eat together and share time together. They would praise God together. Key word here.... TOGETHER! When you are away from the body of Christ, you can become more like the "world" and not focused on God.

There are several examples in the new testament that show how Jesus had brought Peter, John and James with him on many occasions to pray together and be with him. He was teaching them that we cannot get down the road to heaven alone. If someone tells you they don't need to go to church or to be around other Christians, that they can survive on their faith alone, they need to be shown the truth. The road to heaven is so difficult to get down, we need to help each other get there. This is the purpose of the church.

Now, back to my main point... fitting in. Do we "fit in" at church? If we believe together than we fit in. It doesn't matter if you're married, single, a teen, college (or campus) student, over 50, a kid or anything else, what matters is your love for God.

I have felt like I don't fit in at church, but I realize now that I was wrong. I was looking at it in a catagory format... not the truth. I'm married but my husband does not have the same beliefs, I'm not single, but I am spiritually as I am leading my household spiritually,and I'm not a teen or campus student. However, I am a believer of God, the great almighty one who doesn't see me in any of those ways. He sees me as the daughter He created. One who loves many and tries to live like He wants me to. So, "fitting in" doesn't really matter.

BTW, I learned this when I was with the teens this weekend. I realize I haven't finished my journal about camp, but just know that these teens are so amazing. I always feel so special when I'm around them. They are such loving young adults! If you do not know anyone like that... come follow me.... I can show you some amazing and loving people. GOD'S PEOPLE! True Christians who make mistakes and repent, but love more than you could ever believe!

I just love the teens in our ministry!

2010 Quest Camp - Monday

Monday was the beginning of change for many at camp this year. God had plans to work on the hearts of not only the teens, but the adults there as well. Morning worship was amazing. Love the music. It's such a great way to get going in the morning. After Worship LIVE was the morning message which I will post about at a later time. This however, it about Monday's activities.

The plans were kept hidden from the campers. We learned about how the father in the story had given a party for his son. We were doing that as well. Starting the camp with a party, what a way to begin! We had a dunk tank, cotton candy, snow-cones, speed pitching, sumo wrestling, obsticle course, horse racing (blow up horses) and jousting. Then we also had several soccer games going on in the field. Even when it was sprinkling on us, we kept going. It was a blast.

Why did we give a party? The teens hadn't done anything, they had just gotten there. That's the point. The son did nothing but return to his father, and his father held a big party to celebrate. We were celebrating the kids coming to camp. It was great!

Amanda (co-cabin counselor) and I got the joy of helping at the sumo wrestling... that had to change after half an hour or so. Never thought those costumes weighed as much as they do! It was a blast though! After finding some male counselors to take over from us, we helped out with the snow cones. How funny! But this gave me a better opportunity to take pictures. I took many as always!

Getting to know the other counselors and the teens was so much fun. I feel that camp is a small slice of heaven on earth. Unconditional love. Fun. Honesty. Fun. Great food. Music. Music. Singing.

I pray I can continue going every year.

2010 Quest Camp - Monday QT

QT:
The Mericful Love of the Father

Luke 15: 20b "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'
22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.


28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

Psalm 107: 1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
2 Let the redeemed of the LORD say this—
those he redeemed from the hand of the foe,
3 those he gathered from the lands,
from east and west, from north and south. [a]
4 Some wandered in desert wastelands,
finding no way to a city where they could settle.
5 They were hungry and thirsty,
and their lives ebbed away.
6 Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble,
and he delivered them from their distress.
7 He led them by a straight way
to a city where they could settle.
8 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for men,
9 for he satisfies the thirsty
and fills the hungry with good things.
10 Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom,
prisoners suffering in iron chains,
11 for they had rebelled against the words of God
and despised the counsel of the Most High.
12 So he subjected them to bitter labor;
they stumbled, and there was no one to help.
13 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
14 He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom
and broke away their chains.
15 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for men,
16 for he breaks down gates of bronze
and cuts through bars of iron.
17 Some became fools through their rebellious ways
and suffered affliction because of their iniquities.
18 They loathed all food
and drew near the gates of death.
19 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
20 He sent forth his word and healed them;
he rescued them from the grave.
21 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for men.
22 Let them sacrifice thank offerings
and tell of his works with songs of joy.
23 Others went out on the sea in ships;
they were merchants on the mighty waters.
24 They saw the works of the LORD,
his wonderful deeds in the deep.
25 For he spoke and stirred up a tempest
that lifted high the waves.
26 They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths;
in their peril their courage melted away.
27 They reeled and staggered like drunken men;
they were at their wits' end.
28 Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble,
and he brought them out of their distress.
29 He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hushed.
30 They were glad when it grew calm,
and he guided them to their desired haven.
31 Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for men.
32 Let them exalt him in the assembly of the people
and praise him in the council of the elders.
33 He turned rivers into a desert,
flowing springs into thirsty ground,
34 and fruitful land into a salt waste,
because of the wickedness of those who lived there.
35 He turned the desert into pools of water
and the parched ground into flowing springs;
36 there he brought the hungry to live,
and they founded a city where they could settle.
37 They sowed fields and planted vineyards
that yielded a fruitful harvest;
38 he blessed them, and their numbers greatly increased,
and he did not let their herds diminish.
39 Then their numbers decreased, and they were humbled
by oppression, calamity and sorrow;
40 he who pours contempt on nobles
made them wander in a trackless waste.
41 But he lifted the needy out of their affliction
and increased their families like flocks.
42 The upright see and rejoice,
but all the wicked shut their mouths.
43 Whoever is wise, let him heed these things
and consider the great love of the LORD.

Questions to ponder:
*In what ways have you experience the unconditional love of the Father? How does that make you feel?
*What are the characteristics of the father in this parable relate to the way God, the Father is? What are the dynamics of his character?
*What does this kind of love make you think of yourself? What are some ways you should respond to this love?

Quest Camp 2010 - Sunday

I AM

This week's topic is the story of the prodigal son.

Luke 15
The Parable of the Lost Son
11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.
13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[a]'
22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.
25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'
28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'
31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

I am going to focus the next several postings about my week at camp. I had the privilege to be a counselor at church camp this summer. There were 180 teens and over 40 counselors, leaders, technicians and support staff there. We went to the Rock River Christian Camp in Polo, IL. The staff there is awesome too!

Arrival was on Sunday, July 18. I got there early. Fellow shipping with everyone was so great. I felt as awkward as I usually do in new surroundings. Yes, I know, I went there last year. It wasn't the first time I was there, so it wasn't really "new" surroundings. However, the some of the people were different and it usually takes me a little while to warm up to people. I'm so glad that I belong to the kingdom of God though, everyone there accepts me for my quirks.

Anyway, after all the counselors arrived we got to have a meeting with Curt and Heidi. I began to feel much more comfortable in the group.

Once our meeting was over, my co-counselor and I went to our cabin. We had fun decorating it. I had never met her before, but knew that we'd get along just fine, I was right. We were ready for the campers!

After the campers arrived they had to check in and get their cabin assignments. I knew we would have an awesome cabin. Yepp! Anyway, Sunday was spent checking in with meds, electronics, money and going over rules, plus the swim test if anyone wanted to swim during the week.

It was a simple day, but so much fun.

Starlight is a whole 'nother topic all together. The sky was beautifully shinning with stars and a bright moon! God was shining down on us as we sung around the fire.

Monday would be the day to start a new chapter of life. The story of the lost son is amazing. The father in the story was so excited to see his son that all the son's mistakes were automatically forgotten. This is how God sees us. We are His children. He wants us to come running to Him!

What are you waiting for?

Today's Stuggles

Today is a Friday. I took the day off to participate in the Relay for Life for the American Cancer Society. Well, come to find out yesterday that no one on my team was planning on being there. So, I've been in the deliema whether to go or not to go. It's weighing on me greatly. I know that if it were closer it wouldn't be an issue, I'd go. This is an hour + drive away. If I had known this would happen I would have done one locally (10 min drive). Someone from our team is supposed to be on the track walking at all times. I cannot do that. I know this. So, I feel like I've decieved the people that made donations to support me. I feel so conflicted about this. This is all due to mis-communication.

I should be out mowing, or doing laundry, or something productive, but I just cannot get myself motivated to do anything. Today I'm leaning on God a bit more than usual. He will give me the strength to understand this.

I still feel so deeply for my friends who lost their husband/father last week. The family has been on my heart so much lately. Especially the teen that I know. I just want to hold her and let her cry her eyes out, but I cannot. Not yet. The time will come.


Deuteronomy 6:5 NIVLove the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength

Father's Day

Even though Father's Day was yesterday, I thought of many things about this. There are so many aspects of what Father's Day is to people. The majority of people think it's about our earthly father, which is correct, however, we need to remember our Lord God our Father!

My earthly father... Hmmm... When I think about him, I do my best to only remember the good things about him. I know he did the best he could as a dad, no one can really ask any more of a person than giving 100%. Thinking along this line, my dad did some great things for me.

He taught me how to be organized, pack a car, use a hammer; which many of my female friends never learned how to do until they were an adult. He tried to be fun and enjoy life. I know he was not handed the best deal when he was younger. His father passed when he was little (not even 5) so his "father figures" were other men in his life. So, being that said, he did a good job.

I am greatful for my Father above allowing me to have my dad on earth. Of course there were negative things, but that is the past and it's done and over with. Today is a new day. I will take what I've learned from my dad and try to use that good for my own kids.

This way I can be a good mom to them.

Speechless

Today I sit here stunned. This morning was a morning of chaos and craziness for a friend of mine. I cannot imagine what she is going through right now. She woke up this morning to find her husband had passed away during the night. It just boggles my mind. There's so many things going through my head right now. No, I wasn't that close with him, however, I feel I am close to one of his daughters. All I want to do is hug her and not let go, but I cannot right now. The time will come and she'll be within arms reach for that hug, as will her mom and two other sisters.

I have been so amazed at how the news has traveled so quickly. I have been contacted by 5 different people, but find that a family that recently moved to Africa knows already. I am so greatful for the kingdom of God.

This is a man who lived his life following Jesus. He was a wise man that will be missed by more than I can even imagine. I hope to attend his services later this week.

The goal... to leave the legacy as he has... following God. Walking the walk of a true disciple of Jesus.

So it brings me to a song, which was sung recently at church:

Legacy by Nichole Nordeman
I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
And you can take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all the "who's who's" and so-and-so's
That used to be the best at such and such
It wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an "atta boy" or "atta girl"
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this worldI want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthy list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soonenough destroy
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
Not well-traveled, not well-read
Not well-to-do, or well-bredI just want to hear instead
Well done, good and faithful one
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me

So when I hear these words sung http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vbi4nSrhRxo I wonder... have I done enough? Have I lived the life that God wants me to live? Am I being the Christian that He wants me to be?

I know I cannot answer these questions. I am doing the best that I can as I'm sure my friend who passed did. I will know one day... I hope to hear "Well done" from the one and only true GOD!

Matt 28

Matt 28: 19-20 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Today is a great day! Thirteen years ago today, I was dunked in cold water. Went in a sinner, came out a sinner... the difference; my sins are forgiven. It's hard to believe that it's been 13 yrs already!

God has taught me so much over these years. I have seen Him work in many ways and in many lives. Right now it's difficult to see Him working on today's issues, but in the past I've seen it clear as day.

Moving - when we bought our house there was much doubt in my head about us being able to afford it, let alone where to move to. God made it clear, in my opinion. He made things work out so we got this house here in LITH. Even at the closing, we got money back from things that shouldn't have been on the loan that were.

As I'm writing today, my daycare kids are beginning to wake up early, which means I cannot finish my thought process. Shiny object time; you know, get distracted easily. BTW, I can't stand this trait in me. I wish I could fix that and stay focused for longer than two or three minutes. Things just don't get completed well when this happens.

Memories from Camp

Last night at midweek I was talking with a teen that was in my cabin last summer at camp. This got me thinking about writing about that week. It was such an amazing week! The week was entitled "Out of this World" and boy, it was! I've never spent a full week with Christians on a daily basis. This was so amazing that I'm not even sure I can put it into words.

Being that this was my first camp experience as a counselor OR a camper (which I've never had the opportunity to be)... I was unsure of what would become of the week. The unexpected became amazing!

Sunday I arrived and found which cabin I was in. After finding the cabin and getting my stuff situated, I was off to learn about the week ahead. We had a meeting with the rest of the counselors after they arrived. Of course when the campers arrived, everyone was excited! The first day was definately a challage to me. Getting me out of my shell. I knew that God wanted me to be out of my comfort zone here, so I just went with it. They wanted the counselors to dance down the isle! Me? Dance? That's such a joke, if there's anyone with two left feet, that's me! But I did it anyway. Sunday was all about getting to know each other. The rest of the week was so wonderful.

Monday through Friday we had a morning message and an afternoon message. Topics for the morning messages were; Heaven, Hell, God's Passionate Desire,The World, and In the World, but NOT of the world.... the afternoon messages; God's Design for Marriage, God's Design for Dating, God's Design: Attraction, and The Draw of the World. The teams got to put together a model tabernacle. Wow, now I really understand when the bible says ... the curtains were torn. I know the meaning behind it! Amazing... The curtains in the tabernacle were designed to seperate God and people... When Jesus died, these curtains were torn, so now there was no seperation between the two... Jesus is the bridge!

Aside from the messages impacting me...the teens did! I think they did more than they realize. I have built some amazing relationships with teens! I didn't mind being the "mom" when people needed a hug from "mom". Fine with me. Anyway, these teens were incredible.

We had a talent night on Thursday evening. There were kids up there that have never been on stage before. They were so nervous, made mistakes. In the world the kids would have been boo'd or laughed at. Not here. Every single teen encouraged the ones on stage. It didn't matter if it was an amazing performance or if the person made many mistakes. They cheered them on anyway. It was a night full of acceptance and love. Where was this when I was a teen???? LOL

I think the best part of this week though, was starlight devo. We sat around a fire and had a devo. Well, on several nights while returning to our cabins, my beautiful daughter snuck up behind me and held my hand the WHOLE walk back to the cabins. What a sweetie! I thought that was the sweetest thing she could do. Surrounded by peers and still wanted to be by her mom. WOW!

So, hopefully, I will know soon if I can go again this year. The teen I talked to last night said she was asked if she would want me as a counselor again and she told them definately. When I saw her on Sunday she told me I was the best counselor! WOW! Just blown away from that.

Like I said, it was an amazing week! I've learned much over the last year, if I'm allowed to return this summer as a counselor, I have more ideas for my team and cabin! I know what's important and what's not. I can't wait... I'm so excited!

Psalm 19:14

Psalm 19:14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer

This is my meditation scripture for today! It is much needed. The thoughts have run crazy in my head and I begin to worry. I need to focus on Him and not worry! Why am I worried? Well.... Will is now on 11 months of not working. We may owe in our taxes this year... next week! There's a problem with the Saturn that has to be repaired or we're without a car. THen of course, there's the problems with the van, but that's not immediate. Ah, the joys of life!

Reading this scripture I know that God is with me. I will meditate on His word and what He wants me to be doing.... not on what satan is throwing at me. I will get past it as I always do. Every day is a new day, and it's what I make of it.

So, somehow, we'll survive and get both Tanis and Caitlynn to camp this summer.

REMINDERS

Col 3:12 -14So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

Well, I need to keep this on my heart more so I am going to remind myself today about this scripture. Who God really wants me to be! Even on days when I'm mentally wipped out or emotionally exhausted, I need to focus on God and His word. I may not be either one at the moment, but the day will come when I am there, again.

I will always have something to work on in these areas. I plan on posting these things around the house as a reminder for myself. My biggest hurdles will be self discipline and compassion.

A New Day

Today is a new day. A new day for many things. If I look at things in this perspective, it always seems better. I've learned over the years how to look at my life in a positive way, it has not been easy for me. By nature, I'm a negative person when it comes to looking at myself. I have learned how to do the best I can, which is all I can ask of myself. Honestly, if others don't like it, oh well, I can't change other people's opinions. All that matters is that I'm trying to live my life the way I believe God wants me to.

So, I look at Psalm 52... what do I think of this passage? Let's see....


Psalm 52:1 Why do you boast of evil, you mighty man?
Why do you boast all day long,
you who are a disgrace in the eyes of God?
Do not live by the eyes of man, but the eys of God.
2 Your tongue plots destruction;
it is like a sharpened razor,
you who practice deceit.
Speaking without deceit, God wants us to speak without malice or deceit.
3 You love evil rather than good,
falsehood rather than speaking the truth.
Selah
So far we know this is what people are doing all the time... living like this 1-3.
4 You love every harmful word,
O you deceitful tongue!
5 Surely God will bring you down to everlasting ruin:
He will snatch you up and tear you from your tent;
he will uproot you from the land of the living.
Selah
Look out! He will snatch you up!
6 The righteous will see and fear;
they will laugh at him, saying,
7 "Here now is the man
who did not make God his stronghold
but trusted in his great wealth
and grew strong by destroying others!"
8 But I am like an olive tree
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God's unfailing love
for ever and ever.
Am I living in God's house? Am I flourishing? There's always work to be done on myself in this area. I do trust in God's love, though. It's the only guarentee I have.
9 I will praise you forever for what you have done;
in your name I will hope, for your name is good.
I will praise you in the presence of your saints.
I will praise God for all He's done for me. Without Him I would not be in a good place. I would be a bitter, anger person. I do not believe that I would have enjoyed my life half as much as I have, and I'm not even half done with it yet!

God is Good!