Ps 54:2 Hear my prayer, O God; listen to the words of my mouth.
So, many people make a resolution at the beginning of the year. I'm not doing that. I'm making a plan for 2012. Very basic for me but this is what I'm wanting to do. Today may be only the second day of the year, but I'm making sure God's word is in it for me.
Yesterday was great. There was a great message given by Winston in the North Region. Hopefully it will be posted here soon http://chicagochurch.org/north-sermons It was about spiritual growth, which is what I'm working on personally. I'm looking at keeping my eyes focused on Jesus, no matter what's going on. I need to retrain myself to do this naturally.
Prayer, that is something I need more of. I need to talk with God so much more than I do now. I feel that I've let Him down by not asking Him for the help I really need to have. This blog is going to be for more than just spiritual growth this year. This is going to be me, plain and simple, posting whatever I feel like posting. I want to share how He really affects my life, not just on the surface which is what I've been doing in the past. This blog has been slow going and I want it to grow as well.
Last year in January I told several people that 2011 was going to be the year of change. Well, 2012 is the year of growth. Changes that happened in 2011 - oh my... many.
In February my husband started attending church with me on a regular basis. God had called him loud enough for him to hear... and he responded.
I closed my home daycare June first. That was very difficult for me. Been doing it for 11 1/2 years. So, Will and I were both unemployed.
Went to camp in July! Amazing time! Looking forward to it again this July.
August I started working at Burger King as an assistant manager. Worked nights, very difficult for me. I didn't see any of the family. It sent me into a deep depression and my anxiety level skyrocketed.
August also brought a great day! My husband was baptized and saved! After 14 years of being a Christian, my husband finally joined me. It's changed so many aspects of our lives.
November I was diagnosed with bipolar NOS, preliminary diagnosis really as I am still waiting for the final diagnosis. I'm off my depression meds and am involved in a support group.
December was filled with the holidays. But first I gave notice and quit BK. I liked what I was doing and the people I worked with were great, but I just couldn't do it anymore. Between the hours and the time away from my family I felt like I was loosing myself.
I noticed that within those months working at BK that I missed more church and church related events than I had in the last 15 years of attending this church. That was really scary.
So, 2012 will be a year of growth for me. It's not a resolution, it's a plan. One that I have a plan for. It's not just, "Oh, I need to loose weight" and not know how to go about it. Yes I need to do that, drastically, but I have a plan on how to do it. I'll post about that another time.
So, I'm sticking to the plan and not a resolution! Because those never work... but a specific plan usually does!
