QT Proverbs 1:20-33

Pro 1:20 Out in the open wisdom calls aloud,
she raises her voice in the public square;
21 on top of the wall [d] she cries out,
at the city gate she makes her speech:
22 "How long will you who are simple love your simple ways?
How long will mockers delight in mockery
and fools hate knowledge?
23 Repent at my rebuke!
Then I will pour out my thoughts to you,
I will make known to you my teachings.
24 But since you refuse to listen when I call
and no one pays attention when I stretch out my hand,
25 since you disregard all my advice
and do not accept my rebuke,
26 I in turn will laugh when disaster strikes you;
I will mock when calamity overtakes you—
27 when calamity overtakes you like a storm,
when disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind,
when distress and trouble overwhelm you.
28 "Then they will call to me but I will not answer;
they will look for me but will not find me,
29 since they hated knowledge
and did not choose to fear the LORD.
30 Since they would not accept my advice
and spurned my rebuke,
31 they will eat the fruit of their ways
and be filled with the fruit of their schemes.
32 For the waywardness of the simple will kill them,
and the complacency of fools will destroy them;
33 but whoever listens to me will live in safety
and be at ease, without fear of harm."

This passage makes me think of a mom. A mom who has told her child not to do something and the child isn't listening. The mom who comes up behind them and litterly smacks them in the head. "what were you thinking?" and "duh" - mom said not to do it, you should have listened to her. If we listen to God's word and follow him we will be safe and at ease. This doesn't mean we won't have problems or troubles, this means that with God we can get through anything. "Then I will pour out my thoughts to you," I would love to know what God's plans are for me.

Today I am doing better. The depression is slowly lifting. God is working powerfully in my life. I am doing what I need to be to help it lift as well. I am making sure I have prayer time with Him. I am getting in my walk with the daycare kids, all two of them. I am making sure I look good for ME.

I am still a little stressed out about money, although I know we've been through so much worse than right now. I'm at a crossroads. I have two daycare kids and I need either to have 4 full timers (or the equivelent income) or get a job outside the house. Well, I'm of mixed emotions about both. I really enjoy what I do with kids. I love being able to be home when my own kids come home from school. I feel this is so important. I can be here when their friends come over to "hang out". But, on the other hand... Tanis needs more independence, the house would have less clutter. I don't know. This is one decision I'm leaving to God. I have prayed for Him to lead me in the direction He wants me to be in. Lead me to where I can work for Him, not money. Where does He want me to be?