Ever think about it?

Have you ever thought about your life? What you have accomplished? All the things you've done? Boy do I... all the time.

I am so grateful for so much. I don't even know where to start. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and tell myself things. Like in high school when I was struggling with depression. When things were so much easier then and I really had no clue. I miss a lot of my friends from school. I wish I could tell them how much their friendship during those times meant to me. Maybe one day I will be able to. For now, I will blog it here.

Now that my daughters are both in high school, plenty of memories come back to me. All sorts of memories come back. There's so many people that affected me then. So many people who cared... now I know why... to get me here today.

Today I sit, relaxing while Tanis plays Wii with his friends. It's not quiet but I have my headphones on, listening to my music. Right now it's music from Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. That was such a great experience! Watching Caitlynn perform in Annie was just as amazing.

I gues the best thing is that I've learned so much in my life. I wish to share things with those I know and those whom I have yet to know.

QT - Phil 4:4-7 DO NOT WORRY!

Phil4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

With this verse I look at several things. First and foremost: REJOICE! This is so important for us. To remember to be happy no matter what our circumstances. Sometimes it's so difficult to do this. Why would one want to rejoice over difficult times? Because there's always something from God. This is explained in verse 7. I need to make sure my gentleness is more evident than it is today. I also need to present my requests to God. I need to stop worrying. I know this is a natural tendancy for me, but I need to stop.

I need to entrust God with all things. Every day He does amazing things in my life. When I think about all it took to make one moment possible, it's amazing. Think about it... everything at this moment going on in the world, in the galaxy, universe.... etc. God gave us the stars, the moon, the earth, the dirt.... everything. Yes, there are bad things in the world and there will always be these things. He allows things to happen for reasons. Sometimes it has nothing to do with what we're thinking.

For example; When Will was laid off for 20 months. I was faithful. I knew God would present a job to him. He did. Yes it took a while, but while we struggled finacially, my faith in God soared. We were taken care of. We had food, heat, our home, clothing, everything. Even when we thought we wouldn't have a Christmas for the kids... He answered those prayers too. The kids had plenty of presents to open that year, thanks to the Salvation Army and the Grafton Township.

So, why do I worry like I do? Who knows. I know that God will prevail. I know that my goal should be to serve God and not man. For me to follow the Word of God daily.