Thursday, January 27, 2011

Wow!

Psalm 19:14 May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

I have been focusing on this passage for a few weeks now. Trying to make sure that whatever I say to my husband is in a Godly manor and not negative. Of course, I'm not perfect and I have stumbled. I'm sure I've said things that both made no sense and things that were hurtful. This is not the way God wants me to be living my life. He wants me to be encouraging to others.

With having depression, this has been difficult often. My nature is to be negative toward everything and not to encourage others. I am working on this with everything I do. I am working on being more aware of what I say and how I say it.

God is an awesome instructor!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Too long

As it has been almost two months since I've posted here, there have been many new events in my life. The holidays were very difficult this year. Thanksgiving was good. We spent it at my sister's. I love getting the chance to visit her and Mom. I miss them more than they know. Each time I get to visit I realize how much I miss them. I would love to live closer but that's just not going to happen right now.

Christmas was a major struggle for me. I know that for whatever reason God has allowed my family to be humbled this year. My hubby hasn't worked since May 2009... so Dec was 19 months. This is the first year I didn't spend a dime on Christmas or send out any cards. It was so difficult. I know God has a plan though. He will work things out and it's ok. We had a good Christmas anyway. We spent the day together as a family. We played a couple different games and in the end it was a good weekend together.

The stresses of life has taken it's toll on me lately. I've become very depressed and unsure of the future. Luckily, when I look at it in God's view... everything will be alright. He walks with me daily, He knows what I feel, He will push me through the rough days when I can no longer walk. He is my rock, my sword and my shield.

From one of the teens today: Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Proverbs 4:23

I have to say that I am a very lucky person. I have some amazing people in my life! In the last two summers I have had the honor of assisting at church camp. This has given me the opportunity to meet some amazing people. I know that many adults do not view teens the way I do. The kids I know... wow, they are so awesome.

Yesterday I was encouraged by several. I had the opportunity to chat with a few after church and can truly see God working in their lives. He is so previlent in their lives, it's amazing. I cherish each and every one of my friends, even the ones that are under 20! They can be the most amazing. Fighting off the world while in the middle of it. Encouragement like that is awesome. I love each one of them! There are several who know how special they are to me... I will keep reminding them too.

I am hoping to get in a true QT later today, but wanted to blog anyway today. These things have been on my heart and I wanted to share it.