Friday, February 26, 2010

Thoughts

So in this blog all I've done is post on my quiet times. I understand that can be uplifting, however, to be able to fully understand why these things affect me the way they do, you need to understand me. I can't even understand me, so good luck. I will do the best to explore more than what the scriptures mean, but what they mean to me personally. I struggle with many things just like anyone out there. I have my demons that I battle with on a daily basis. To someone else they may be nothing, however, we each have our own shoes to walk in. I'll stick to my own shoes though, I don't think I could handle anyone else's problems.

Knowing that Jesus died for me.... This is a totally amazing concept. I am so not worthy of this sacrifice. Yet, it happened. He was on the cross dying for me. I know he died for everyone, however, putting into this concept of him dying for one (each of us) is so much more personal. Can you imagine him on the cross, knowing that we'd just continue to be such a messed up people? He did it anyway, so we have the opportunity to reach God. When I think about this, I cry. It tears me apart to know that God loves me so much that He allowed Jesus to be tortured and die in the manor he did... because He loves me.

Today is a day I am going to struggle through, I can already tell. Having absolutely nothing to do with work or family... just having to do with lack of self esteem. I feel like I am nothing. I am so grateful for the things I do have though. This is how I bring myself out of the pit of dispare called depression. It is a daily struggle for me. Knowing this I have decided that I need to keep a better blog of my own to follow. I have to do this for myself. I will as well, continue my quiet times here online for anyone who is following them. I know that God has a plan for me, today is the beginning of a new day... a new idea. Let's hope I can keep it going.

Right now, I'm feeling better now that I have come up with a plan. I'm calling it my 365 day plan. Since I'm on my computer daily, I should be able to do this. I know I won't when I'm at camp... so I'll have to take some good meds for my arthritis and write longhand then transfer it to my folder.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

QT - John 1:1-18

The Word Became Flesh
1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2He was with God in the beginning.

Meaning: Jesus is the Word... Jesus was with God in the beginning... before the beginning.... Jesus IS God!


3Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4In him was life, and that life was the light of men. 5The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood[a] it.

WOW... Jesus is the light that shines in the world.


6There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John. 7He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe. 8He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light. 9The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world.[b]

John came before Jesus... he was not the light and made it known that Jesus was still on his way.


10He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13children born not of natural descent,[c] nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.
14The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only,[
d] who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
15John testifies concerning him. He cries out, saying, "This was he of whom I said, 'He who comes after me has surpassed me because he was before me.' " 16From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another. 17For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. 18No one has ever seen God, but God the One and Only,[
e][f]who is at the Father's side, has made him known.

Jesus was here before everyone else... before John. Jesus has always been and always will be.